Returning home to the Philippines is a double edged sword for me. I love it and at the same time I am afraid of it and at some extent, even dread it. Like everyone else, my family is my greatest trigger. The fear of failing the expectations they have of their 'unica hija' is very daunting to me. And yet I also know that in the arms of my parents I am safe and I am loved, whatever I am, whoever I chose to be. It took me 3 years to return home. And this time I didn't bring extra, no friends to keep me busy, no work to have as excuse when the conversations get tough, no extra trips to escape to. Just me.
Open. No armour, no weapons. Bare and naked. And they came with open arms, to welcome me just as I am and to try to understand. Of course not everyone understood. But my parents and my brother did. And I can only feel the love and the will, they had to understand. It was not simple. I had to face the conversations even when they got tough and not run away, and keep a steady mind. With family, it's always very easy to take everything personally, because it's easy to think that their response is coming from a place of judgement or that they think we are not good enough. Instead the challenge was to try to take the conversations in the context of love. It seemed to work. It took a lot of effort to step back and look at the bigger picture, a lot of presence and understanding and mostly patience and time. But it was possible.
They say we can only heal ourselves, and in this path we heal others too, our families included. And the healing process is a slow one. But it is not impossible. In this time of hustle and bustle, it is easy to think we do not have time. Time though is relative, it can be as short or as long as we let it be. And I am still on the way. There are plenty of things to heal and I am willing to go through the process, however long it takes. I would want to take you with me through this process. I will not do the work for you, but I will help you in your way. It is not an easy process or a fast one, but I am willing to put in the work. With a personal approach with the intention of getting to know you and using the method of Ashtanga Yoga as a method to heal.
In this coming home to Antwerp, I bring you with me the gift of presence. I open my own home for you and your practice. With the blessing of my teacher to let me teach this method and the blessings of my parents and family who have equipped me with the best they can offer, I offer you my time, the knowledge I have gained with studying this method through my years of practice and teaching, and a promise to keep studying and learning, by myself, with my teachers, and with you. I offer you MYSORE SPACE, opening 2nd of March 2020.
The program is a month to month basis program. I encourage you to sign up a month and allow time and space for growth. Spaces will be limited to provide an intimate space for learning and self discovery. More details can be found in the website www.mysorespace.com. For other inquiries please email firstname.lastname@example.org. I cannot wait to see you and share this experience of coming home with you.