Creatures of Habits

Around 16h on Sunday I get this uneasy feeling that my blog post should be done. It's more of a mental thing. And I always think I have nothing to write, and yet in my mind there's also so much to share but I just cannot seem to make it into something that flows together or just something comprehensible to anyone other than me. Part of me thinks, no one really reads it, or maybe someone does and they do not like what I write. But really like practice, this is just the doing. There is no goal. Of course it is nice that it is appreciated by some, some maybe get irritated with it, I always think it's always good to draw emotion. Then you know that there is atleast feedback than just nothing.

I also try my best to put this in the latest time I can. And yet I know I always like to write. To be able to have this words strung together and just be there. And available to read to whoever is interested, to whoever needs to read something like this. At the same time I get interested on what people think but at the same time feel very vulnerable on putting my thoughts there because there can always be miscommunication, the way I type, the way I put words together or maybe just their own personal experience at that time. 

Anyway, so I get used to this habit of saying hi. And yes maybe no one is reading but it's just the thought right? It's like the practice. It's just the practice of doing it everyday. It doesn't seem to change everyday but after 8 years of practice, I think there is a difference in me, and it didn't happen overnight, there were times when I thought nothing was happening and there were also time when I felt like I just cannot handle the amount of things going on. But yeah for both it's just a matter of time. The bad things pass but so does the good things and we just keep going with it. Learning, receiving and appreciating the gifts. And of course there will be also times for pain and dealing with less pleasant things, and we get hurt, we complain, we think we will never do this again and try to learn. 

So what's the point? I'm not really sure. Do you know? Maybe you can share your thoughts with me. I'd be happy to listen.

Anyway. Thank you as always for reading. Keep your masks on when you can, stay protected, stay safe and happy. Make good habits but bad ones can be fun too. Stay strong and flexible, in the mind, body and heart <3

Love always,
​J