Impossible

Does this cross your head? Telling yourself that things are impossible? I have this a lot, but I also manage to prove myself wrong. Sometimes intentionally, most of the time unintentionally. Let's say I have the innate ability to underestimate myself. Self doubt comes in and I feel defeated even before I get started. And this is very tough to fight with. I sometimes feel so little (pun intended), helpless and weak. 

But there is another voice, sometimes it starts very silent, sometimes it knocks me off my feet. It tells me what am I worried about? It asks me why I am doubting myself. It is kind. It is sincere and it believes me. Yes, I know if you hear voices in your head maybe you should go to a doctor. Well I do not need a doctor to know I am mad. I know I am crazy already and it is not such a bad thing to be. ;) Anyway back to this voice... she is kind and she is hopeful. She believes in me much more than I would myself. And she is right, most of the time... all of the time. She knows I am capable of much more than I ever can imagine. And it is not said in a sense of self importance and haughtiness. I say it because we, ourselves are the ones who manage to sabotage ourselves even before we get started. And it's not necessarily our fault. We were programmed to doubt ourselves. The society has taught us that, unfortunately. 

It is a process of unlearning the conditional thinking we were born into, to stop listening to the voice of doubt and insecurity and to dig deep and to listen from within. To be able to quiet all of the voices of self doubt and anxiety and to start believing in ourselves, I think that's the power. And most of the time we are result driven. We want results and we are afraid we will not get the results we want. And that stops us from just doing the things we really want to do. We are also afraid of being judged (of being crazy ;) among other things). And we get stuck and trapped. But we can free ourselves, we can free our minds to do the things we think are impossible. We are after all where we are now... Think, five or ten years ago, did you ever think what you are now, what you are doing, what you are capable of. At that time we didn't think it was possible, but look, we make the impossible possible.

'Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast' - Alice in Wonderland.

Keep dreaming, keep doing, keep being. 

Love always
J