On the mat

How are you all? Are you like me, getting crazy with all of these? I was hoping that we are would be off this COVID by the end of the year, at least not next year was in my head. Just keep at it, a few more weeks, a few more months and right now it just seems like we are in a vicious cycle. But yeah, that's like. Tough lessons right? Somehow it is the feeling of being stuck, the feeling of not being able or allowed to do something. I think that can drive anyone nuts, plus the fact that we all kind of are in a way crazy already. 

I get on my mat, everyday, I know it is hard, I know sometimes it seems impossible. I feel lucky that somehow it is possible in my life. I count myself blessed for this. Seeing my fellow students, my peers not finding time to do it, I don't think they do it out of excuse. I think everyone is doing their best. It is not so simple to find this time for yourself everyday. There are chores to be done, the kids needs to go to school, there is work, or you're probably exhausted. Has these ever stopped me? Of course they have. Somehow, I guess I am crazy enough to find time on the mat. Because I feel the benefits of it.

It is somehow for me, like taking a shower, like brushing the teeth or writing down my daily journal. It's a process. Sometimes there are days that the body is very malleable and the mind as well and those are fantastic practices, and there are also days like it's lugging a big potato bag, and you know what these are equally great practices. For me atleast. It's like organising my brain, through the breath and the body. Somehow for me it has become a tool to see things in a different view and to loosen up the tension in the body by these repetitive movements. I don't really know. For me it works in such a way that somehow it has become a therapy.

I wish you all strength in the next weeks, months. Even if it seems like we are back in square one, and maybe we are, but maybe with a bit more experience and more knowledge to have wisdom for the next steps. I stay with you practicing online, everyday. I share my strength in this way, but also my weakness. Because I am not strong everyday, nor am I happy everyday. I am not always lovable. When we look at it, we cannot just use one single moment, we have to look at the bigger picture. We kind of have to keep with what we hold dear in our hearts. Stay safe and stay healthy, get on the mat or of it, mostly stay happy <3

Love always,
J